★BlAnK★

Baby,can you tell me what is going on?
Is it necessary to play hide and seek after we chat on phone?
I know I should trust you
I promise I will trust you
But can you do something that let me to trust?
I dun want to become a silly gurl
who knows you are cheating me but still believe you

That day,
I said I felt scared and thought you are playing this relationship
you said you were very angry
so you said break up
but after 1 and half hour
you didn't feel angry anymore as you love me
you said i should trust you
as we want to continue this relationship
if I feel scared
means that I did not trust you
I did not love you
I felt calm on that time
because I felt your love

I also know that trust is very important in a relationship
I should trust you
Really

Hide And Seek Game
make me dun know how to trust~
I know I am crazy+stupid+silly

I trust you
I dun believe you
as in between believe
there got a lie...

I dun want to become sticker anymore
I will let you find me first in this week~
After that if you didn't find me...
I will say goodbye,ok?
this is the best solution for us~
 

★A lump in my throat★

Suddenly~
I feel scared
I dare not to tell people that I am afraid now~
Sure that they will say I think too much~
In fact~I do not~I claim that~
I really feel afraid~
When he say sorry,I not feeling well,want to take a rest,find you tomorrow~
Suddenly~I felt that he was avoiding me~
maybe this is an excuse~who knows?
maybe is I think too much already~
but I don't know why I have this kind of feeling~
I know that I should believe him~I should trust him~
but I don't know why I can't do it~
maybe I always initiative to him~
so he no need to do anything coz he knows that
whatever he did,I will forgive him and stand by him~
I say by myself for many times already~
please stop your actions~
without reason~
please stop~
let him knows that
I can be independent~
I can live without him~
but you know~
It is weird~
did you see before~
this kind of relationship?
the girl scared of getting hurt~
so everytime she cannot find that guy
she want to give up~
coz she thinks that the guy cheat of her again~
the guy's action~
also very weird~

If you step on one step towards me~
I am willing towards you 999 step~
till reaching beside of you~
but are you willing come towards me for 1 step~?

★relax~Babe★

Just like awake from a dream...
Unbelieveable~
He called me~(of course I called him before!)
He sended msg to me~!
He said a lot of things~
So I think I believe him again~
I should give him a chance
to change himself
although a leopard wouldn't change its spots
he is not a leopard
But see~
He disappear again as I cannot find him yesterday~

I talk by myself
"Relax~!"give him some times...
as global warming is not change in one day~(a bit scientific)
He will find me...
but not now~~
Relax~

So now I am super relax~
didn't go to school this morning ~
online till now~
watch"Devil Beside You"~

I should be relax~

RELAX

★HiDe & SeEk★

Who is the person that creats 'Hide & seek' game?
Is it fun when let people cannot find you?

Not~!is not fun at all!
I hate this kind of game~!
I hate this kind of game in my relationship~!
What hell is he thinking!?!
I really dunno how to differentiate what is true and what is false
I really dunno whether I can believe you or not?!!
What is going on who can tell me?!

He has a huge refrigerator
I am the thing that he keep inside the fringe~
Everybody knew that it was expired...
Only he said that it is fresh and still keep me inside the fringe
and then would not open it again...
I was closed in the fringe...nobody can help me~

★please~dun play hide and seek again★
★please~let me go,ok?★

my mum says I have a lot of times that why I layan you
so she applies many courses for me~

Let me forget you~

★forget and remember★

when i was young(now still very young la~~~)
I mean when i was a little girl...
I cannot eat ice cream(because I have asthma)
but every time,the ice-cream motorbike(got music one~~~~)
came over my house
I would say to my mum:"mi~~I want to eat ice cream~"
and my mum would say:"cannot!!!!"
now I know that it is for my own good
I had to stay in hospital after I ate the ice cream
but a 4 year-old little girl wouldn't know these things
so when mummy refused to buy ice-cream to me
I would make face to her and cried
(also didn't get the ice-cream finally~hehehe)

However,sometimes mummy would buy ice cream to me
At that time I was over the moon as I got that thing
which is cannot get easily
I was very contented
At the same time,I hope that the ice cream wouldn't melt easily
I hope that it wouldn't melt forever
so I could have it all the time
Unfortunately,
it won't happen in this world unless you are live in South Pole
(Stupid~!the ice at south pole started melting already la~!)
Finally,I finished the ice cream and was been sent into hospital
when I had a relapse
very uncomfortable
have to eat a lot of medicine and to have injections
that is the effect after eating  ice cream
After that mummy would say:"Next time cannot eat already...so you no need to stay at hospital and wouldn't feel uncomfortable.ok?
like a circle
happen for many times during my childhood

Now,the little girl has grown up,
but she still face to these kind of things
this time,is not an ice cream
is a man,called Ken
Nowadays,I find him all the time
Sometimes,maybe I am fortunate
so I found him
we chatted and at that time I felt contented
and I hope that we chatted all the time
the happy time cannot pass though quickly and easily
I hope that he will find me and let me know that he love me actually
just express his love in different way
Unfortunately,after that,I would be hurt by him
his weird actions let me become crazy nearly
as he will missing after chatting
at past,at most a whole day
now,five days
without any reasons
that kind of feeling I only felt it before this when I cannot get ice cream
but this effect is much bigger than asthma
which is heart broken,heart pain,like heart attack
the pain is unbearable
super painful
the heart is bleeding
the tears are rolling
the mind is messy
the doll is wet
my mummy now will said:"don't find him anymore,don't think of him anymore,you will feel better...and you will forget him after a period of time~"

Ken~please let me go if you didn't love me anymore
I repeat it for many times already
please,I am begging you
I don't care whether this action is childish
I don't care whether this action is silly
I just want you

let me go

I won't find you anymore
and you can turn off your phone forever
even though you will switch on
please don't send message to me
or give me a call
I know myself
I am soft-hearted girl
I will forget you every time
although you hurt me 100 times
so,please~let me go

your tears had cheated of me

clever tears...

✖A Good Start✖

I tried to forget u as I need a restart...

Game was over and we have to face our new life...

Goodbye~baby

Hello~you

your new name=you

is it suitable for you?

goodbye