★HuRt★

Hurt
dun misunderstand~
is sore throat~
everything is coming suddenly~
coughing~flu~sore throat~
my voice is getting sexier~
OMG~
dis kind of sexy~
I dun wanna~!




SPM
become nearer and nearer
YOU
leave me further and further
it is good to me
at least I know that
YOU
won't come back again~
YOU
won't hurt me again~

Hei~
AS YOU know~
I am that kind of silly girl~
although I know you are bad egg
I still accept you
Because I am a good egg
I can give you happiness
As you cannot give me
I can share my wealth with you in my future
If you don't mind
I can lead you
And tell you what is good and bad
I can give you everything which  the others can give you
I can also give you everything which the others cannot give you in your life
Unfortunately~
YOU are not appreciate at all~!
So~
WELL
FINE
I will give them to other people who is know how to appreciate

Tear
is a obedient creature
It stays at the place that it should be
And hide itself properly
Won't come out without my premission~
Tear
My new lover~
Please be obedient ~okay?

Flu

Cough

Please become Ken okay?
leave me alone forever~





these 3 years
like a drama series
like a movie
like a dream
in actual
this is a joke

Now~
everything is go back to the past~
07/02/2006
I wished that this is true
Dun tell me this is just a dream~
I will hit your buttock twice~!

★Maze★

I afraid that kind of feeling
just like I got lost in the maze
dunno where is the exit
dunno where is the correct way
the person gave me that kind of feeling
is you
I can only stay at there
As I dunno where should I go
I lost the guider
You are my guider
In the past

I afraid that kind of feeling
when I realised that
A new beginning is start
A new day is coming
A new day without you
just like awake from the nightmare
sweating wetted my pajamas
I doubt that is tear or sweat
I scared that
the day without you anymore


How to explain the feeling I have?
sweet smile mixed with salty tears?
happy mixed with sadness?
Happy and sad came out together
the sad will cover the happy always
that day~
I awarded a lot of present
I was greeted with warm applause
but the next second
when you said we are friend
means that I lose you forever
What kind of feeling should I express?
So Happy fought with Sad
So Smile argued with Tears
Finally
Sad and Tears became winners
Appeared on my face
everyone stared at me
so embarrassing
Now only I know
5 October 2009
The heaven has driven a joke with me
Let me realised the feeling of happy mixed with sadness

I hate myself like that
Always rewind the past
Live in the past
I hate my blog filled with sadness atmosphere
BUT
what else can I do?

3 years
why look like 3 days
What kind of joke is this?
Suddenly become stranger
without any reasons
even though you have already another gurl~
I won't hate you
I'll blessed you
I am dis kind of kind gurl
You can call me silly gurl
but
I need answer
Although I know that is not important at all

Now
I awake from the dream
although I afraid that kind of feeling
I still have to accept~
that is funny~
I thought that I can't live without you
but I still alive
gotcha~
goodbye
stranger
I will come out from the maze in the future
I will have a betta life

★FroM thAt day OnWArds
    I didN't haVe thE cOUraGe
    tO caLl thE NuMber AnyMorE
    I jUsT Can TrAnSter My LOvE
    ThRouGh The AIr
    I wIll DisMiss YoU FroM mY MinD
    IN tHe FuTuRE★

★clear★

you
let me clear that
you dun lub me anymore~

you
let me clear that
you are really a bad egg

you
let me clear that
you are a good liar

you
let me clear that
you are capable of making a beautiful lie

you
let me clear that
you won't come back to me anymore

so
I won't love you anymore

so
I won't miss you anymore

so
I won't find you anymore

so
I won't let you hurt me anymore


you
and
me
is
over

★SiLLy★

silly
my another pronoun
my mum said
a gurl willing spent 200+ per month
and call that stupid man
is very silly action

so i'm silly gurl~
pls call me silly gurl~

change new number oledi~
4 number behind is 5320
if translate into mandarin is
I want to love you
understood~?
now~
dis silly gurl still want you dis bad egg~
but unfortunately~
you dun wanna me anymore~
so
conclusion~
who is more silly?

★Game Is Over★

everything is over
everything was going their original position
me too
I am single now
this is my original position

Since when you and me are going different direction?
I chased you from the behind when I realised that you were going far away
you stopped when you felt happy or in good mood
you kept walking when you felt unhappy or in bad mood
whatever you did, I still chased you and followed you
you felt very annoying when I kept following
but the problem is what is wrong when I kept following you?
I claim that I didn't do anything wrong
just because on that time you are mine
Is it look weird when boyfriend does not find the girlfriend
and the girlfriend also didn't find that boy?
What is the kind of relationship?
If you felt unhappy,you can just say...
the problem should be easier~
but you didn't
I admit that I am very stupid
Everything people must say with me,only I know~
If you didn't say,I will assume that everything is just nice~

Now~I say break-up with you
but you didn't reply
Is it no need to reply~?
that is my fault when I kept asking what is your advice!
but I need response~
Just give me response~
but you didn't~
Now~
to you~
I just your friend~
Xqs me~
I dun wanna be your friend k~?
become stranger is more easier~

Now~everything is over~
Game is over~

thx~

Now~I juz can stand at there~
staring after you~
till your figure disappear from my sight~
my tears wetted my blouse~
and form a heart-broken shape~
the atmosphere suddenly turned cold~
and froze my heart~
you get out from my life now~
won't come back anymore~
but you know~
I really hope that you will come back one day~
A new you~
but this is hopeless~
like a balloon in my hand~
I released it to the sky~
will it come back?
nonono~it will reach another place~
meet another person~

★I miss you★
Although I know I can't~